Home Sweet HOME!

When working towards your "ideal" life, things can become emtionally draining. However, the one place that you can always go to is your home. Now "home" is not just a house, or an apartment, or a dorm room. Home is that place that brings a calming spirit over you. Its that place that accepts you and seems to never change no matter how long you are away. Home could be your house, your parents house, your best friend's parent's house or even a whole city....Wherever your home may be, it is always sweet when you can take a step back from all of your problems and just relax at home.

Things have been kind of bumpy for me lately here at school and I have been really stressed. Well Kisha B asked me to dance behind her when she opened up for the Trina and Too Short concert in Little Rock. People who know me know that I hardly ever go home but I really wanted to dance behind Kisha. I spent the whole weekend at home in Little Rock and surprisingly it was really relaxing. You don't fully know how much you miss something until it comes back to you. I really miss home. I miss dancing in Little Rock and performing with my friends. Though Little Rock is no New York City, it is way more fast paced than the city my school is in which is Conway, AR.

The Trina and Too Short Show went really well. Everyone agreed that out of all of the opening acts, Kisha B. had the best show of the them all. She had a hype woman and two dancers (including myself) behind her whereas other rappers got on stage and had the croud falling asleep. The feeling of being on stage is something that can never be replace nor masked. I love having to transform into someone else and dance my heart out on the stage.

When opportunity knocks...should you answer????

When you begin to question what to do with your life and things seem to be at a stand still, opportunity will knock and you have to decide whether or not you are willing to answer.

I am the queen of complaining about what I want in life and having self pity about not having the opportunity to do the things that I feel passionate about. However, God has this funny thing that he does. He will prove you wrong about any doubts that you may have. This makes it hard for you to blame anyone but yourself for not reaching your goals and dreams. Everyone has a choice and with each choice comes a consequence that you have to live with. Instead of going to school to study dance, I went and studied Biology. Instead of continuing to study dance, I stopped and focused on school. These are choices that I made and I have to face the consequences.

 What exactly am I rambling about??? Well I jumped out of the entertainment business for a while when I began school at the University of Central Arkansas. It seemed smart in the beginning but after a while I began to feel like something was missing. So I did some research and found the number Kisha B. She is one of the hottest female rappers in Little Rock right now and I was fortunate enough to dance behind her both times that she went to compete on 106 and Park 's Wild Out Wednesday. She has a big heart and is very humble compared artists who aren't even half as talented as she is.


The 106 and Park Crew





Kisha B.



Well she referred a manager who was seeking a choreographer to me and now I am slowly but surely getting back into the place that I want to be...which is the dance floor. Even if I don't do the choreography job, I still like the feeling of holding on to my dreams.





We plan and God laughs....seriously....

I woke up Monday morning on May 23, 2011 at 8:00 am and got ready for work. This morning I actually had a hard time getting out of the bed but I figured I was dragging because it was a Monday. I finally pulled out from my apartment at 9:00 am already late for work. I turned onto Donaghey towards my job which is less than 5 minutes away from house. I drive through a green light crossing over the Donaghey and Dave Ward and all of a sudden I see a silver Audi driving across the intersection. Before I could absorb what was going on. This nice old lady smashed into the side of my car, pushing me over a curb and knocking everything in my trunk out onto the streets. Who knew that as I was dragging out of the bed that morning that I would get into a car accident less than 5 minutes away from my home. I am thankful that I was wearing my seatbelt because the impact was so hard that I would have been hurt if I wasnt buckled in. God had plans for me regardless of what I thought I had going.

Having this wreck knocked me out of being so self absorbed. I spent so much in my own little world that I would tend to forget about my family. You don't realize how much you miss something until it comes back. I have been away from my family a lot that I began to lose myself but God works in mysterious ways.

Family will always catch you when fall and God will always put you back on course..... :)

That feeling!

Yes, I know that I already blogged today but I can't resist. Its like those new pair of shoes that you just bought and they seem to go with everything in you put on!


So I just go my EBT card in the mail and no one ever told how great it feels to walk into the store pick up what ever food you might want or need and instead of reaching into your wallet for your skimpy debit card, you pull out the ever so faithful EBT card. I was so happy when I bought my food and I wasn't broke afterwards. Why did I not do this earlier!?! What was I thinking trying to be uppity and not get on SNAPS. If you are a college student and  you don't have parents that let you mooch off them, I strongly advice you to consider going down to your local Human Resources Department and applying. The worst they can tell you is no!

Holding your breath at a crossroad....

The feeling of holding your breath is something that can become eternal. Its like being the last kid outside waiting on your parents to come pick you up from school but then after an hour of waiting, you reach into your purse and realize that you had the keys to the car the WHOLE time. I am holding my breath but there is nothing that is keeping me from taking that big whiff of fresh air. We as people have to learn how to take leaps of faith despite the odds. History shows that there have been countless of individuals that have succeeded with everything against them. So why is it so hard for us to chase after our dreams.....or should I say me. I go to my biology classes, and study my biology books, all the while my heart is having a temper tantrum because it wants to dance. Its almost like its flowing through my blood.